Have you ever just thought and wondered: What If this never happened? What would I be like if I had never been assaulted? Where would my life be today? Would I have kids, would I be married? Would I be struggling like I do each day to motivate myself to get up, shower, take my meds and try to engage…
Year: 2018
The Daily Challenges I Face Each Day
Since remembering my trauma and all the emotions that come with it, my life is one that I had never would have imagined for myself. At any moment my heart could start racing with the mere thought of going to bed, sometimes at the shear fear of having night mares and flash backs of my assault. Just to sleep I…
So Fast Forward to This Moment in My Life
So fast forward to this moment in my life. The biggest question that I have struggled with: Where do I go now that I have come to realize that my life isn’t what I had imagined when I was in my younger years. I remember just looking at my husband the other day and starting to cry. Why you ask?…
My Epilogue ~ After The Fateful Night Everything Changed… Now What?
I called my mom approximated 5 days after that night. I asked her to swear not to say a word to my dad. She told me to go to medical, report it and I did. After tears, crying and speaking to the woman, another individual came into that room. Together they told me that if report the assault, I would…
Why Do I Make Myself Vulnerable?
Why do I make myself vulnerable? I have given myself a voice. Given myself permission to own what’s happened to me. To take back control. I will never have the opportunity to face my accusers, never have the opportunity to ask them – Why? I can only try to create in my thoughts, their motives and reasons. Am I angry,…